Mamafai's Daily Dose

The Proud Mama

I'm a 35 year old woman brought into this world on February 23rd 1971 and married to the same man for 13 years, mother to 2 hilarious, extremely handsome boys and one beautiful baby boy, who was totally NOT planned, but who turned out to be the Joy of our lives, loves to drink ice tea and hot chocolate from Starbucks. There is more to me than just being a mother, I just don't remember any of it.

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This site and contents, unless otherwise noted, is a copyright of mine! This website is a place for me to draw together all aspects of my life into an enjoyable and interesting journal. You will find issues that are truly going on in my life at the current moment. Sometimes I can be sharp. I am also very open with my feelings and opinions. If you are part of my life and I love you, you'll read about it in my journal. If you are an idiot, guess what? It's in here too. Feel free to respond if you choose. However, leave my website if you can't handle reality. I dont give a damn!

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Mamafai's Daily Dose...

Saturday, July 29, 2006

..: Nothing to see here :..

I've been doing some blog surfing today, reading blogs I've never read before and now I'm wondering why any one would even waste their time reading mine? man, I'm so boring and don't really have anything important to say. I feel so insignificant now.

The reason I started this blog was to have an outlet. I didn't care if anyone ever came to read it. However, people have come and they do read and I have met some of the most wonderful people. Some of them I have even grown to love and consider them my friends. They are amazing people that I would have never met were it not for this blog.

But I don't understand why any of you find me interesting enough to come back over and over again. I see the stuff that is out there and it's amazing. I don't have anything important to say, nothing deep or profound. maybe I make you laugh once in a while, but other than that, there's not much here. It's just me blabbing about my unimportant life and thoughts. (sidenote: I am NOT fishing for compliments here!!!) I just see what's out there and I realize, I am not unique, I am not even a good writer, infact, I suck and I know it! I am not entertaining. so, Iwonder why anyone would read my blog on a regular basis.

I will continue to write here, even if no one came to read, because it's a great outlet for me. But I'm grateful you do stop by and I am even more grateful for the support you have given me when I've written about something that is troubling me. Your words and emails have been invaluable and have given me so much to think about. some of you have even written to me and it's been so helpful to me. Words can not express how much your words have meant.

So, although I didn't start this thing to make friends or with the intention of anyone reading it, I am glad that you do stop by and read and even take the time to leave comments, or send me emails and I hope you continue to do so, although, i'll never understand why you do!

Or perhaps... this is could be the reason ;) ...

heheh...thank you my friends....

Mamafai wrote @ 3:16 AM |

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

..: There is no point, people. :..

I'll never understand people who take the time to e-mail me and intended to insult/ hurt me. Do these people really think I care?

Oh my God! "YOU SUCK" thinks I'm a filthy, fat whore!

HOW WILL I EVER BE ABLE TO GO ON WITH MY LIFE?

God.. "Getalife" thinks I shouldn't be allowed to breed and that I make ugly kids!

WHERE'S MY GUN SO I CAN JUST END IT ALL NOW?

I especially love the person who told me I was a bad mother and that I was stupid just like my cupcakes. He/she really injured my soul when she snapped this zinger. "MAYBE YOUR HUSBAND SHOULD CHEAT ON YOU SO YOU KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE!"

Oh, maybe he should! Maybe that would teach me a lesson! NOW I'M AFRAID TO LET MY HUSBAND LEAVE THE HOUSE, BECAUSE, WHAT IF HE CHEATS ON ME?!?!

Those people make me laugh, I mean, they HURT ME SO BAD I DON'T WANT TO LIVE!

Hilarious, people. Hilarious.

It makes me laugh so hard everytime I think of it.

You know what's totally NOT hilarious?

I think I am going to get pregnant again and breed as much kids as possible. I'll produce more beautiful kids and my husband never failed to love me every second and every min of his life!

HAPPY NOW????

Mamafai wrote @ 11:20 PM |

Sunday, July 23, 2006

..: 2 tiered :..

My first attempt..2 tiered!

P.S. Flowers are all handmade and you cannot find them at Phoon Huat...hehehe

On another note, it was an honor to be asked to bake for her. It will be a surprise for her live on Suria Segar this morning. Happy Birthday Nurul! Hope you will like the cake!

Mamafai wrote @ 3:14 AM |

Thursday, July 20, 2006

..: Venting :..

When some people feel jealous or insecure, they lash out at others. Maybe they gossip behind people's back and spread nasty rumors in attempts to make themselves feel better because their jealousy is eating them up inside.

Not only that..they sent out nasty e-mails and etc..

Now LET ME TELL YOU THIS!!!... I feel I've started to succeed at something and as soon as I get close to my goal, I will never give up. I am not gonna as easy as JUST STOPPING as what you have wished.

The thing that seperates me from these people is that instead of trying to better themselves and instead of working hard to achieve a goal, they just talk about others and try to pull others down.

Are there any "Tony Robbins" or "Rhonda Brittons" out there who can give these people advice on "setting and achieving goals like a mature adult?" They've just got to look for ways to STOP THE INSANITY!

Mamafai wrote @ 2:11 AM |

Friday, July 14, 2006

..: We did it again! :..

It's in Berita Harian today!

Mamafai wrote @ 1:41 PM |

..: Durian Fantasy :..

There is no special occasion. I baked this out of boredom earlier. (ps...flowers not from phoon huat eh..heheh)

If you're no lover of durians, skip this item. But you don't know what you're missing.
How can you not love soft, velvety sponge sandwiched with rich, bittersweet durian fudge?

Just the smell of it is intoxicating. Will let some of my personal food tester try this tomorrow and will see whats the feedback before I update this on the multiply for sale :)

Oh..got my self a new toy...and I am so loving it...now I can just use one device as my mobile phone and the same device to store all my orders and customers data. On top of that, it just fit nicely in my purse... :)

Mamafai wrote @ 12:32 AM |

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

..: The Power of two teeth and squinty eyes :..

(pic taken from hp)

My son has learned to use his "Charm" to get what he wants. A talent that I have never been able to master.

Perhaps it's because I do not possess the Gift of Charm. This little boy, however, is bursting with charm.

And MAN, does he know how to work it.

Mamafai wrote @ 11:52 PM |

Saturday, July 08, 2006

..: Latest mag feat Perfect Frosting in their first issue! :..

Go grab yourself a copy of Sungguh! Pengantin.

Most importantly do not miss what's inside!

Mamafai wrote @ 12:23 AM |

Friday, July 07, 2006

..: My Heart! :..

Last night, Asyraf said "Abang sayang mama, and abah and Afdlin."

Afzal burst into tears, "Abang tak sayang adik"

The look on Asyraf's face when he realised he forgot to mention Afzal's name broke my heart. He does love Afzal, very much, and I know it was an accident that he didn't mention it

"Abang tak sayang adik..abang tak cakap nama adik!" Asyraf left the room, his eyes full of tears. because he knew he had hurt Afzal, and that hurt him.

I tried to comfort Asyraf, but he sobbed uncontrollably. I held him as he buried his sweet face in my chest and said "Mama, abang sayang adik tau. I think about him ALL DAY in school."

I lost it. I started to cry for both of them. I cried because I knew Afzal felt betrayed by his brother, and I cried because I knew Asyraf was devestated that he caused his brother that much hurt. And I cried because my children love each other deeply and the beauty of that touched me to the core of my being.

It also made me realise how things that I think may not matter, matter to THEM. Things that may seem unimportant to me, little things, may be a huge deal. It made me realise I need to be more considerate of what I say and what I do, because I never want to make my children hurt the way I saw Afzal hurt last night, ever.

I thank God everyday for those boys. They teach me new things everyday. They make me a better human being. But mostly, they make me happy, even when they're breaking my heart.

Mamafai wrote @ 1:58 AM |

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

..: Madeira - I baked! :..

This was made earlier for a special lady. When her daughter had asked me to bake for her, without any hesitation I took up the challenge. But when I was told she don't eat cakes made from non-muslims... I knew I had a bigger challenge. This had to be good. She has to like the cake...

I had Plan A initially which I think she will definitely love the cake. It failed the very last minute. I couldn't find part of the ingredients anywhere... hmmm.. so I had to flip flip my old recipe book.. I remembered I've baked this (without the chocolate coating) long long time ago..before Asyraf was even born. It had quite a good review from some frens. So I've decided to whip this up for her and have decided to add a modern touch to it. In fact I baked 2 so that my personal food tester and food critics can test it first...Ok half cake was gone in half hour :P

Madeira Chocolate Cake - I've baked!

So we'll have to wait for her review tomorrow. I just hope she is gonna come back to order more :) Happy Anniversary Makcik!

Ok..if you can hear the song playing on my blog now.. this song was sent by a good fren on mine.. and dah lama aku kenal mina ni..baru tonite aku tahu dia ni ada suka sama tu AWIE lah... gua caya sama lu minah! ROCK NEVER DIE!!! :P

Mamafai wrote @ 1:50 AM |