Mamafai's Daily Dose

The Proud Mama

I'm a 35 year old woman brought into this world on February 23rd 1971 and married to the same man for 13 years, mother to 2 hilarious, extremely handsome boys and one beautiful baby boy, who was totally NOT planned, but who turned out to be the Joy of our lives, loves to drink ice tea and hot chocolate from Starbucks. There is more to me than just being a mother, I just don't remember any of it.

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This site and contents, unless otherwise noted, is a copyright of mine! This website is a place for me to draw together all aspects of my life into an enjoyable and interesting journal. You will find issues that are truly going on in my life at the current moment. Sometimes I can be sharp. I am also very open with my feelings and opinions. If you are part of my life and I love you, you'll read about it in my journal. If you are an idiot, guess what? It's in here too. Feel free to respond if you choose. However, leave my website if you can't handle reality. I dont give a damn!

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Mamafai's Daily Dose...

Thursday, December 29, 2005

..: It's like a Jurassic Park in there :..

So most people have seen "Jurassic Park" yes? Remember when they show the raptors inside their area and they're attacking the electric fence systematically and Dr. Grant is in awe and says, "They're testing the fence for weakness"?

That's what it feels like in my uterus right now.

A fairly active baby in general as it is, but for the past 20 minutes I have felt a constant pushing starting at one side and moving steadily across to the other. Then the pushing goes down one side and back up the other, and starts again. Over and over. It's not painful and it's not actual kicking or elbow jabbing like it usually is, it's just like someone is in there pushing steadily to see if there's some weak spot so that he/she can suddenly burst out of my stomach like the parasites in "Alien"do.

Combined with the fact that last night I had to stop reading to Afzal for a second because I was overwhelmed with the weird and uncomfortable motion of an elbow trying to protrude from my belly button (Afzal felt it and thought it was hilarious.), and I can't help but think this baby is not as enamored with my uterus as Afzal was. He/She also has a tendency to abruptly launch itself downward, headfirst.

This baby wants out. Too bad for the baby that I keep lecturing him/her that he/she needs to stay in there for at least two more months or else he/she is grounded...hehehe

I will be leaving for the weekend retreat tonight :P Don't think I will have the time to update my blog till the New Year. So I am wishing all now a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

Mamafai wrote @ 3:58 PM |

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

..: Tuesday Night :..

I had a great dinner/time with these 2 ladies lastnight. I never fail to enjoy myself whenever I am around them. Initially there were more on our invitation list but had to strike them off cause we knew it would not be the same having the rest of them around.

Thanks girls for the hilarious time!

(pssst...thank god I didn't pee in the cab last nite..hahaha!)

Now I just can't wait for my weekend retreat :) ...

Mamafai wrote @ 11:13 AM |

Sunday, December 25, 2005

..: Week 27 :..

According to most sites and books, week 27 is the last week of your second trimester. I can't believe how fast the time is going.

Now my lower legs get tingley if I stand in the same place for too long...It started on Wednesday and on Friday it got worse. It happens after only a minute of standing in one spot. If I keep moving, it doesn't happen, but when I stand still, say doing the dishes, it is so annoying. I know it's a common discomfort of pregnancy.. Ugh!!!

Oh last night I also woke up to a horrible CRAMP in my calf! The only way it went away was when dh massaged it for me. I'm soooooooooooooo glad he was home when it happened. It hurt so badly. I hadn't had a cramp like that in years!

Mamafai wrote @ 11:22 PM |

Friday, December 23, 2005

..: Happy Birthday Asyraf!!! :..

6 years ago today, I was presented the most handsome baby boy in the world, and he still is. Happy Birthday! I love you!

Mamafai wrote @ 10:43 AM |

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

..: Muthu's :..

I was treated to a nice dinner earlier. Just the two of us...time away from the kids :) Thanks LALING!!!

And a festive order....

Mamafai wrote @ 10:23 PM |

Monday, December 19, 2005

..: A glimpse into the future :..

Earlier, Asyraf and I were curled up on the bed watching television. He was lying right against me when the baby kicked.

Asyraf : HAHAHA! The baby kicked me in the bum!
Me : I know, that's funny.
Asyraf : (brief moment of concentration) HAHAHA!
Me : What?
Asyraf : I farted on the baby.

So that's what it will be like...hmmm

Mamafai wrote @ 10:13 PM |

Sunday, December 18, 2005

..: Taken Care of :..

I've got the sweetest husband in the world (most of the time!) :)

Last night I could feel him laying behind me with his hand on my belly almost throughout the whole night. I could hear him say, "The baby's moving a lot!" He rubbed my arm, shoulder, and back to help me sleep. It was so nice, and I believe the best night's sleep I've had in weeks!

I woke up this morning and found $50 note under my purse. There was also a note telling me to order pizza for lunch if I feel like having one today. It's soo nice to be taken care of! :)

We went to visit Baby Aini yesterday... She is so adorable...

Congrats to Herda and Kamal!!!

Then it was working time...

as usual, click here for more pics...

and off to visit Charm's new home. Thanks for being a great host last night.

Mamafai wrote @ 1:09 PM |

Friday, December 16, 2005

..: Taking Over :..

I have been down with fever for the past few days. The baby decided it would be fun to step on my bladder all day today. There was about 4 times where I had to drop everything and run to the bathroom in order to avoid an "accident." This started at about 11:30 in the morning and lasted all evening. It was the oddest feeling. Like my bladder was being squeezed and constantly needed emptying, but there was nothing to empty. I felt like such a horrible mother because I just kept wishing the baby would stop moving.

S/he is so active, it was impossible to sleep and started to upset my stomach. Dh listened to me vent about "If I can't deal with the baby while it's still inside, what am I going to do when it comes out?" He hugged me and made me feel better, and assured me that I have been doing well at being a mom. I know my feelings are normal, but after the apprehension comes the guilt. How could I be so selfish when my baby is only trying to live? Especially with all of the problems I've been having throughout the pregnancy, how could I wish the baby to stop moving? I'm going to be a horrible mother...And so on...

The emotions just flow out and you never know where they're going to come from or what will strike the onslaught. Thankfully, I am lucky enough to have a partner who is curious and thoughtful and will humor me when I need it most. And I think he's right... I have been doing well as a mom.

Take a look at this... I just can't wait for the other "santa" to make his/her appearance!

Mamafai wrote @ 7:11 PM |

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

..: Computer World Award :..

HP won its 10th Computer World Award. Yes, this is the 10th time they've won the award! The retreat dinner was held at Shangrila (Sentosa) last night.

Unexpectedly, I did won the Special Recognition TCE (Total Customer Experience) Award last night. Haha after that years of sufferings and tortures!!! I guess we really do deserve it. Infact I think we are the most important people in the organisation besides the CEO, Directors, Managers and bla bla bla. Finally our hardwork are being recognised.

This is what I've got....

Mamafai wrote @ 10:51 PM |

Sunday, December 11, 2005

..: It's a.... :..

Heheh.. doctor said its 100% boy and 90% girl (*faints*). He's still having difficulties finding out the exact gender of the baby. But I think its gonna be another boy... I thought I saw its little penis yesterday and I am having this very strong feelings/vibes/ instincts its a boy.

Well, it doesn't really matter... boy or girl I would still love him/her the same :) and he/she is just gonna be as cute as the brothers.

Just look at him....

Mamafai wrote @ 11:03 PM |

Thursday, December 08, 2005

..: Morons :..

Do you remember a time when if you worked for a lazy, ungrateful moron you could just quit because you were only working that job for cash?Being an adult really sucks somtimes! It seems that the people who work the hardest are always on the bottom, and they are working for people who do nothing.

I guess in Singapore the less work you do, the more you get promoted. Yet, these "skaters" will still reprimend the people who follow their lead. The boss can show up to work late, but no one else. The boss can clock hours that they never worked, but no one else. The boss can falsify the amount of vacation/sick time they took, but everyone else better keep damn good track of their hours. It just makes me sick!!!

So, my plea to anyone who reads this who may be in some sort of administrative position, Do Not employ these people. This does not result in a happy workplace or a positive team environment. It will only make your employees resent you and pray that someone above your head will see what is going on. A manager is only as good as the people working beneath them. Do not expect a level of work higher than what you yourself are willing to give.

Mamafai wrote @ 4:21 PM |

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

..: How Sweet It Is :..

...to be loved by you!!! I just had to gush for a minute and tell everyone that I really could have never imagined a better husband than Dh. We are so perfect for each other sometimes it's unbelievable.We have been through so much together and have always come out on top. We have the same dreams and the same goals that we want from our lives together. It's just so nice. We have our problems, just like any couple does... but even in the heat of an argument I can look at him and just know. There is no better feeling in the world than to love someone with every inch of your soul and know that their love for you is returned unconditionally. You can be at your most vulnerable, most disgusting, most irritating, most goofy; and no matter what that person will love you. And after 13years, my love just continues to grow (no matter how much I complain about him)!

Mamafai wrote @ 4:20 PM |

Saturday, December 03, 2005

..: Kick Baby Kick :..

Baby was practicing kickboxing last night at bedtime. For two hours. Two solid hours of kicking.. really it felt more like swooping and dragging of body parts across my insides than true kicks. In any case it was enough to keep me from falling asleep.

So much for getting to bed on time. I should go take a nap. I am tired. But I don't feel like laying down and sleeping. It's been an odd day. I am exhausted but restless. Earlier I could barely keep my eyes open, and was vaguely nauseous. Now I have the chance to sleep but can't make myself go lay down.

But am definitely glad I manage to complete all orders for this weekend...

The pictures are in here...

Mamafai wrote @ 11:48 PM |

Friday, December 02, 2005

..: Another Day :..

So tired.... Sometimes the daily routine is very unfulfilling. It's a lot harder now to be picky with opportunities since I need benefits for the baby. I just feel so stuck somedays. I am sure we all feel like that from time to time.

I barely slept last night. All of the books and women that I've talked to keep telling me how tired I am going to be. Which is true during the day in front of my computer screen, but not at night in bed. Especially if I take a brief nap during the day, I can forget about a good night's sleep.

Oh well, there's always tonight.

Mamafai wrote @ 9:48 AM |