The Proud Mama
I'm a 35 year old woman brought into this world on February 23rd 1971 and married to the same man for 13 years, mother to 2 hilarious, extremely handsome boys and one beautiful baby boy, who was totally NOT planned, but who turned out to be the Joy of our lives, loves to drink ice tea and hot chocolate from Starbucks. There is more to me than just being a mother, I just don't remember any of it.
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of mine! This website is a place for me to draw together all aspects of my life
into an enjoyable and interesting journal. You will find issues that are truly
going on in my life at the current moment. Sometimes I can be sharp. I am also
very open with my feelings and opinions. If you are part of my life and I love
you, you'll read about it in my journal. If you are an idiot, guess what? It's
in here too. Feel free to respond if you choose. However, leave my website if
you can't handle reality. I dont give a damn!
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Mamafai's Daily Dose...
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Today's blog is all about sound effect and it goes something like this...
Mamafai wrote @ 2:18 AM |
Monday, August 21, 2006
I was trying to think of how to put into words just how tired I am. There are no words.
Mamafai wrote @ 12:46 AM |
Thursday, August 17, 2006
A friend recently told me I look pretty without makeup.
Being the kind of person who can't take a compliment, because, seriously? How could anyone say I look pretty without make up and MEAN IT? I didn't believe her.
However...I decided that I'd trust her. This friend always has my best interest at heart. She'd not say something she didn't mean.
So, I stopped wearing foundation, only a little powder. I also toned down the eyeliner, and bought a more natural lipstick. I felt very uncomfortable and akward at first. I felt somewhat naked and yes, ugly.
Last night I took a picture of myself with a totally clean face. No powder. No lipstick No mascara. Nothing. At first, it was very hard for me to look at. I saw nothing but flaws.
I started to pick my face apart and then, I stopped myself. Everyone has flaws. No one is perfect. That's life. This is the face I was born with, it's the face I'm going to die with. I need to learn to accept it and like it, EVEN IF it's not as pretty as I wish it was.
WHO CARES!? And more importantly, why do I care so much? Life is so much bigger than one's looks. I have stretch marks. My breasts are large and saggy. I have wrinkles and yes, I'm getting gray hairs. So what!
My looks do not define me. I don't think I need to waste so much time struggling with this issue. I am healthy, I am happy, I am loving, I am a mother. So many wonderful things, I am. So I dont think I need to focus so much of my energy on something as trivial as my appearance..heheh
Ridiculous.
Seriously.
Mamafai wrote @ 12:01 AM |
Friday, August 11, 2006
Blogging is becoming less fun for me as each day passes.
I see ugliness in people that disgusts me. Over a BLOG.
I read of people neglecting their families over their blog. I read of people tearing other human beings to shreds over their blog. I read of people wanting fame and fortune and hits and presents.
For the most part, I try to ignore those people who have lost their grip on reality in the name of fame on the internet, and I continue writing about my pathetic little life, because I enjoy it. I enjoy writing about the kids. Or about my family. Or about my cakes. And I enjoy that a few people will stop by and comment. But it certainly isn't the most important thing in my life.
I realise everyone does it for different reasons, and I don't care about what other people's reasons are, really. I do care about the fact people are acting like assholes though. It makes me not want to be a part of it. I have enough aggravation in my life, I don't need to spend time online reading about women who thinks they're a celebrity because they have a blog, and lots of other women read it and tell them how great they are.
I have children, a husband, a home, wonderful friends, ... THEY are what matter. When my kids grow up, I certainly don't think they're going to care how many hits my BLOG got. They'll care about the time we spent at night reading or watching movies together, or going to get ice cream.
I wonder why people spent too much time wrapped up in the blog world. I don't know what it is about a website that makes people lose their damn minds.
I suppose I'm writing this because I noticed that with each passing day, I'm caring less and less about "blogging". I'm starting to realise how insignificant it really is in the grand scheme of this thing called LIFE. I know it's easy to get caught up in it all, I know it's easy to care about how many people read, how many comments you get, but seriously, in the end, it doesn't really matter.
I'm not saying blogs are BAD, nor am I saying that all people who blog should do it for the same reasons I do. I just get sick when I read some of the stuff out there right now!!!
Mamafai wrote @ 2:26 AM |
Thursday, August 03, 2006
My love for him is growing in leap and in bounds.
With each new sound he utters. With each smile he sends my way. With each giggle. With every tear he cries. With each day that passes, my love for him multiplies a thousand times over again.
I love him.
I love him.
I love him.
Mamafai wrote @ 1:17 AM |
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