Mamafai's Daily Dose

The Proud Mama

I'm a 35 year old woman brought into this world on February 23rd 1971 and married to the same man for 13 years, mother to 2 hilarious, extremely handsome boys and one beautiful baby boy, who was totally NOT planned, but who turned out to be the Joy of our lives, loves to drink ice tea and hot chocolate from Starbucks. There is more to me than just being a mother, I just don't remember any of it.

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Mamafai's Daily Dose...

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

..: Prenatal Apologies :..

Dear Baby Number Three,

You haven't even been born yet and already I have to apologize.

I am sorry I have had more chillis this time around and have exercised less. I'm sorry I haven't read "What To Expect While You Are Expecting" cover to cover this time. I am sorry I sleep on my stomach more than I should and don't always remember to take those pill vitamins. I am sorry I haven't bought you anything much for you to wear. Most of all, though, I am sorry I worry that it won't be possible to love another child as much as I love your brothers.

And you aren't the only one to whom I need to apologize. Afzal & Asyraf, I am sorry we are going to shake your world so much in March and that you won't be Mama's little babies anymore. I am sorry you'll have to not only share your toys, but our love, too. I am sorry Mama cannot hold you guys in her lap as easily these days. I am sorry, too, that I don't always have as much energy as I used to have. It will come back one day soon (I hope)!

But I promise, this will be a good thing for everyone in the long run. You'll have each other for company, partners in crime wherever you go. Best of all, you'll each have someone to complain to when dear old Mama and Abah are driving you guys crazy! And when it comes time to decide on a nursing home for us, you won't have to go through it alone.

Baby, your Dad and I already love you like crazy and we'll try to do our very best for you. We will offer you a lifetime full of love and support. I hope it's enough. It seems to be working for your brothers, so far.

See you soon! We cannot wait to meet you and to kiss your sweet baby nose!

Mamafai wrote @ 11:02 PM |

Saturday, January 21, 2006

..: Friends don't treat friends like shit :..

I have a lot of trouble qualifying the sandbox attitude of a friend. Should I worry you won't like me because we disagree on so many things? Oh wait, nevermind, you're like a big person who dosen't mind a difference of opinion and OMG! even listens to it quietly. I don't have to kiss your ass for you to be my friend...and you can kick mine when I get out of line because we like each other? For like years and years and shit? That couldn't have anything to do with it, you think?

Friendship is ended because of betrayal. Not arguments. Not dsagreements. Betrayal. And sometimes that betrayal doesn't have to look like much to other people...it only makes since to the person who feels betrayed.

People who end friendships over a dsagreement are big, whiney assholes...if you're not with me you're against me. Paranoid much? It's just bugging me. The more I think about it the more disgusted I get. I can't fathom just dropping a friend, a real friend over an argument.

But what do know? It had happened to me twice before. I'm not sure about one of them though...I am sure about the other. I knew my decision to speak out was carrying with it the possibility of annoying that friend...I had no idea it would end it, especially as she claims she doesn't hold grudges. I'm over that now. It's ok if people don't like me or come to dislike me...it's a part of life.

What's not a part of life is friends dumping you because you had a MILD disagreement...not even something to cause one bead of sweat to form on your face. That makes me sad for people.

It sorta makes me sad for the person who has so many problems with needing to be right. But not that sad. Eventually karma bites you in the ass.

Mamafai wrote @ 12:40 PM |

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

..: Week 30 :..

30 weeks... only 10 to go! I will have a baby in 10 short weeks or maybe less! My anticipation is growing! My due date is getting closer, and there's lots to be excited about. I think I may be suffering from a terrible case of "the wants" (the urge to buy every cute little thing I see for the baby) every time I go shopping or look through a catalog. I need to "tame" the urge-to-baby-shop monster!

A friend suggested I list out all my baby wish-list. Unfortunately... I don't have one... heheh. I still have all the necessity passed down from Afzal and they are still in a very good condition. So friends... I think you guys got to crack your brains on this...heheh

I never thought this day would come!

Mamafai wrote @ 2:34 PM |

Monday, January 16, 2006

..: Dear Baby :..

This came in my mail this morning from the same friend :) .

This poem is dedicated to my little "one"

Dear Baby,

Although I cannot see you,
I still know you are there.
You are warm and snug inside me,
and require gentle care.

Although I cannot hold you,
or give you a hug goodnight.
I feel you move inside me
and know that you are alright.

Although I cannot kiss you,
or show you how I feel.
I know you share my feelings
and that our bond is real

......you are with me all the time
and always on my mind.
Already I have fallen in love with
my precious gift from up above.

Love, Your Mama

Mamafai wrote @ 9:59 AM |

Sunday, January 15, 2006

..: Valentine's Day Gift :..

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Mamafai wrote @ 1:27 AM |

Friday, January 13, 2006

..: A Wish From Baby :..

I just wanted to share this beautiful poem & picture that a friend sent to me this morning. I got a lil weepy when I read it! I can't wait for our little baby to arrive! I can't believe how much I love my little ones & I haven't even met him/her yet!

A Wish From Baby

I have a little wish for you
for you my mommy-to-be,
this is a way for me to say
thank you for loving me!
I wished upon the twinkling stars
for you, my mommy to know,
that I can already feel
all the love you show!
How you rub your belly
and sing me a sweet song,
and how you ask my daddy
to join in and sing along!
Sometimes it is hard I know
to always do what's right,
like watching what you eat
to make my future bright!
You've already made me happy
my loving mommy-to-be,
you're not waiting until I'm born
you are already loving me!
You will know my wish came true
when you feel how much I care,
a little wish from baby
with so much love to share!

Mamafai wrote @ 9:43 AM |

Monday, January 09, 2006

..: Week 29 :..

I can't believe how fast this is all going sometimes. We will soon reach the beginning of my 30th week. Once I'm a full 30 weeks, there are only 10 more to go! I can't believe how fast it's gone. We are in the final stretch now.

I feel so utterly exhausted at this point. I am having sleepless night lately. This is, by far, the most draining period of the entire pregnancy. My back, shoulders, and neck ache severely. My feet hurt. All the time. My belly shifts and leaps about all of its own accord. I have to pee pretty much all the time, and with increasing frequency, when I actually go, there's little there to expel.

Rolling over in bed is a big to-do all its own and takes much thought and maneuvering. If I sleep longer than two hours at a stretch without waking up to pee or because of pain in my hips, I am surprised and delighted.

I'm not too sure if I can blog promptly nowadays.. but I will try. Yupe that's pregnancy!

Salam Aidil Adha everyone!!!

Mamafai wrote @ 11:52 PM |

Thursday, January 05, 2006

..: Backdated :..

3rd January 2006 marked a very important date for the boys.

Asyraf in Primary 1...

and Afzal in Nursery....

Both the boys were doing very well... Mama is so proud of them!

More pics here...

Mamafai wrote @ 9:31 PM |

Monday, January 02, 2006

..: Weekend Retreat :..

We were here over the weekend...
Tried uploading the photos but its seems multiply having problem now... will upload them later on. :)

Mamafai wrote @ 9:01 PM |